Sunday, October 30, 2011

sad Sunday

Yesterday  - yesterday... my heart aches, I am devastated. Yesterday I witnessed one of the cats being hit by a car. The person didn't slow down, didn't stop, just kept going. No - I won't tell you any details - bad enough that I will never be able to forget what I saw. And no, it wasn't one of the kittens. It was Mr. Babysitter.



Well, while trying to keep my mind off what I saw, as I lay in bed last night - I realized I needed to express my sorrow in a constructive way. I decided to make something like a prayer bead. Don't know if that is the best term for it. I can think about that later. So, this morning, after feeding the cats/kittens; starting the fire to heat the house; I started work on this:



A piece of etched copper sheet, hammered into almost tube form, containing a piece of  handmade paper (with some words that have meaning for me on the paper) - sorry, I don't know who made it, it was a gift my husband brought home from a business trip to Australia - and a piece of dyed silk rod. Beneath are an Ethiopian prayer bead and one of the jasper beads I brought home on Friday. It is still a work in progress...

Wishing everyone a happier Sunday.

28 comments:

Silke said...

I am so sorry to hear that, Renate, and especially having had to witness it. It happens much too often... I am sending you a big hug through cyber space and I am sure your prayer bead will do much to shift the energy surrounding Mr. Babysitter's death. Much love, Silke

SummersStudio said...

I am so sorry, Renate. It's sad to lose Mr. Babysitter, even more so that you saw it happen. I think your prayer bead is a very healing way to express the grief that you feel.

Such a Wondrous Place this Faery Space said...

This is tragic. I send you love. I saw this same thing with one of my neighbors little dogs when I was young and it is still with me. The sounds the day the sadness. I am here, friend. Love you and healing bead art is sooo divine. Good thinking wonderful you. Blessings always.

Valerianna said...

Oh how devastating... and worse maybe that the person driving maybe didn't care. So sorry for you, nice what you made to find some solace, blessings to you.

mairedodd said...

a most beautiful and meaningful piece... coming from a deep well of feeling... i am so sorry that people are so careless, that this had to happen and you had to see it...
xx

Palimpa Lim said...

Das mit Eurem Kater tut mir unendlich leid, liebe Renate. Wir haben auch schon eine unserer Katzen auf diese Weise verloren. Ich hab's gücklicherweise nicht sehen müssen, aber eine Nachbarin, die Zeugin war, hat es mir hinterher erzählt. Dass Menschen so kalt sein können, erschüttert mich immer wieder. Schlimm, dass Du es auch noch sehen musstest.
Deine "Prayer Bead" ist traumhaft schön, sie "spricht" zu mir. Ein ganz besonderes Stück mit einer ganz besonderen Bedeutung. Ich bin gespannt, wie es aussieht, wenn Du damit fertig bist.
Fühl Dich umarmt.

Hopemore Studio said...

Renate, this is so sad. Very wise of you to work your sorrow out through art. I hope you heart heals and the kittens do ok.

Angie

Laura A. said...

Renate, dear, Renate... please accept what little comfort I can pass to you in the way of thoughts across the vast ocean. You and one of your wonderful friends have been through a very bad time indeed. There are many cruel people in this world, and just know that karma is a "girl dog" if ya know what I mean!

The prayer bead is a perfect way to remember Mr. Babysitter. The coloring instantly reminds one of him. While you work on it, you will think good thoughts of Mr. Babysitter and that will be a great way to transition things for both of you.
Take care Renate. I will think of you today as I pet my little ones. I will whisper to them once again the evils of the road beyond the trees.

sharon said...

Sending prayers and comforting thoughts to you Renate. I am very sorry...life is so cruel, and this too would disturb me greatly. Hugs my friend.

lunedreams said...

I'm so sad for this...I've seen hit and runs like this too and it always breaks my heart and makes me angry. I think your memento of Mr. Babysitter is very fitting. He was very beautiful, and it sounds like he had a soft heart too.

Vintage Green said...

I am so sorry that happened. Your
prayer bead is a lovely tribute to Mr. Babysitter.

Judy said...

I am so terribly sorry Renate...this is just awful news. There must be other plans for Mr. Babysitter his little soul was needed elsewhere.
Your prayer piece is so lovely,such a nice tribute to your boy. Hugs to you my friend.

Christine said...

Dear Renate, sending you thoughts, hugs and prayers. It is so painful to lose a furry friend but to witm=ness one's death has to be extremely painful. I think expressing yourself through creating is a beautiful way to help cope with the feelings of pain, loss and anger. Be gentle with yourself.

Lesley said...

What a terrible experience and what a lovely way to commemorate your beautiful friend. My thoughts are with you.

Lisa said...

oh Renate.. I'm so sorry... what a horrible event and to be witness is the worst...i'm glad you were able to remember mr. babysitter in a positive light...may be frolic in peace over the rainbow bridge

namaste

Marbella Jewelry Designs said...

i am so sorry for your terrible loss.. he was a beautiful and he will always be in your heart.

Cindy said...

Renate, I am heartbroken for you to hear this awful news. I am sorry that you lost Mr. Babysitter, I know he was very dear to you. And to have witnessed this is so traumatic, I realize it is something you can never forget - nor would I. I'm sending you a hug and wish that this had never happened.
Your prayer bead piece is a beautiful tribute for your friend. I made a piece of jewelry in this manner as well when I lost a pet rabbit a few years ago- he was in our lives for 14 years and I think of him whenever I wear the bracelet.

Riki Schumacher said...

I am so very sorry to read this Renate. How sad to witness, and what a loss. I can't imagine not stopping, and angry soul possibly. He will always be in your heart. Much love, Riki

Flowermouse Design said...

I´m so sorry. This is heartbreaking. I just don´t understand people just driving on. You pendant is very beautiful and special.

Barry said...

S/R - such a hard thing - for Mr Baby sitter to experience, for you to witness and for us to hear. I felt as though I knew him from your cat posts. The prayer thingy - such a beautiful and constructive way to channel your sadness and honour Mr Babysitter. Go well. B

Inge said...

Liebe Renate, ich wünsche dir viel Kraft. Schlimm, dass du das mit ansehen mußtest. Vielleicht hilft dir die Arbeit an dem Erinnerungsstück, es etwas zu verarbeiten. Inge

Sharon said...

I'm so sorry you witnessed that terrible moment. You shared Mr. Babysitter with us so we all know what a dear and gentle creature he was, and loving, too.

I hope working on your prayer bead will bring you comfort as well as the memories you shared with your dear friend.

romantic decay said...

Your piece is wonderful. So sorry it came about in such sad way.

lilylovekin said...

Renate, I'm so sorry about this. It is awful how the memory of this terrible event echos in your mind. In time you will be able to bear it, but it will always be with you as the good memories will be also. Such a beautiful piece you made in memory, my thoughts are with you. Lorrie

Bluebell Woods said...

so sorry for your loss, it is especially shocking when one is witness to it and so helpless to do anything. I lost my tiny poodle to an accident, not a car but a small boy with a bat and its heart stopping. I will send prayers of healing for you.
Janice

Jenni said...

Sorry to hear this. Your piece is lovely and what a great way to channel how you feel in to this piece. Hugs.
Jenni

Luthien said...

OM Goodness ... i'm so sorry Renate. i too have witnessed few of my cats being hit but cars and they didn't even care to stop. i know how it feels. soooo sorry :(

i am glad you could channel all of the sadness into art. it is the best way to relieve oneself in my opinion. i am off to see your next post. i know it will be a piece that's filled with energy.

Gail Taylor said...

I just jumped over here from fanciful devices blog as you are on her list. I love your work and have viewed it before. I am so sorry about your kitty, I have lost so many as I make it a point to rescue cats, so I have a lot. I see them killed or sickly all the time and it breaks my heart. I just wanted to personally say thank you for loving and caring for these lovely creatures that are so often neglected. We need more people like you for our little furry loves. I had a cat that I swear was telepathic with me and when he got older he would send me pics (I swear this is true-he lived to be 20 by the way) of himself as an old old cat and a young one running right next to him. I took the meaning to be: love us all for we continue through one another and as you help and love one of us, you love all of us. Something like that, but since then I have helped the cats that cross my path if they need me and I feel that my old boy lives in all of them. Take care and bless you.